At a party 

I couldn’t count how many drinks I’d had

Someone handed me another

downed it in a second

The pain was slowly slipping away 

Looking around

The only person I recognized

Was my best friend

But all the drinks caught up to me

I had to go piss

The only thing is

I didn’t know where the bathroom was

I stood up and stumbled

I didn’t realize how fucked up I was

I asked where it was 

Someone offered to show me

Since I’d been so drunk 

I could barely walk

“Ohyea tha*nks”

He was so nice to offer 

He noticed I was bad and wanted to help

I wish I could take back the walk to that bathroom

I should’ve just gone by myself

I should’ve brought my friend

I should’ve done anything but go

He showed me where it was 

He went inside to open the door for me 

I figured he’d leave

Right?

Wrong. 

I stood outside the bathroom 

Waiting for him to leave

He didn’t 

All of a sudden i felt something

Grabbing my arm

“Get in here”

My vision isn’t blurred anymore

I sobered up the second I heard him

Only, the thing that sobered up 

Was just my mind

All of a sudden 

I can’t move properly

I can’t move without almost falling

“Get on the fucking floor”

He’s joking right?

Wrong. 

He says it again 

All of sudden i’m thrown on the floor

My clothes being ripped from my body

Move.

Yell.

Tell him to stop.

Slap him.

DO SOMETHING!

Nothing came

Just a dazed look on my face

Everything’s moving in stop motion

All of a sudden I felt it

My mind went numb

that was the exact second

I feel the last amount of myself

Leave my hollow shell of a body

All of a sudden 

I’m thrown on the counter

There it is again

The rest is blank

I’m blacking out

I got out of that bathroom

 Finally sobered enough to leave

“I’mgonna miss my bius”

I was still too fucked up

I forced my clothes on

Attempted to fix my hair

Stumbled back down that hall 

Got to my friend

“Wehave togo.”

All it took was one look over and she knew

At least I thought she did

We got out of that house

as soon as my feet hit the road

as soon as I feel the cold air wrap around my body

I can feel myself breaking down

all of a sudden I feel hot

tears streaming down my face

and I’m on my knees

I want to get up

I want to stop crying

I want to go somewhere that isn’t this cold street

I can hear people inside getting ready to leave

I have to get up

I have to stop the tears

That was when it clicked for her

What had just happened 

No one had even known

Or they knew

and just didn’t care